omg its bethanne

hello_hopeless @ 2006-01-03T22:20:00

2006-01-04T03:16:12Z

NEW LJ .. it's beth_anne_x3. So add me, and I will return the favor. :)

<3

hello_hopeless @ 2005-12-17T12:30:00

2005-12-17T17:26:11Z

I am VERY happy. :)

I got my love back. :)
<33333

You Get Me Seriously Out of My Mind. <\3

2005-12-15T02:25:04Z

A lot of things are changing. I don't know if it is for the better or worse. I know that some of my friends from PA are starting to commuicate with me, and that is cool. But I don't think I am getting along with many people down here anymore. I don't care, really. I plan on getting the fuck out of here when I'm 18. I want to go to PSU. I just really want to get the fuck out of this town. I feel like it is making me nuts.

I don't think things are going okay with him and I ... at least the way I want them to be going. I dont' want to ask him how he feels or if he thinks we will get back together or not because I don't want to be a pain in the ass or anything like that. - sighs -

I just want him so bad. :'( That's really all I want.

So, I'm thinking about trying to lose weight, but I don't know how to lose weight and fast. Any suggestions?

Well, I think I am going to go talk to Jen.

<3

hello_hopeless @ 2005-12-07T18:52:00

2005-12-08T00:44:38Z

I am pissed off at the world.

I am so sick and tired of everyone's bullshit. From my "best friend" telling me she don't appriciate me cussing guys whom do not think highly of her to my grandmother being put in the hospital. I am so tired of people. ah. That's life. I would just love to isolate myself for 24 hours.

I hate the holidays. I think it's because every year I have been alone, no one to share Christmas with, or the New Year. I miss my grandparents, I miss my aunts and uncles, and I miss my cousins. You really don't appriciate family get-togethers until you don't have them.

I have become so depressed over these past few weeks. The fact I miss him, people are just so immature and childish it erks me, my grandmother is depressed and admitted herself to the hospital today because of her heart, I am going to be alone on the holidays; yet again, I miss Pennsylvania, I am tired of school, and I feel like I am not accomplishing anything. I am just really worried about my grandma, she is the onewho taught me how to walk, the one I called when I lost a tooth, the one I used to spend afternoons with, the one I admire for everything she does and everything she has done.

- sighs -

I'm done.

hello_hopeless @ 2005-11-30T22:34:00

2005-12-01T03:33:58Z

I've been sick with tonsilitis for the past 4 fucking days. >[ I am finally going back to school tomorrow. blah.

Nothing really new has happened. Started dating Tony Liechter, then he couldn't keep his penis in his pants, so that ended shortly after it began.

My job is going well.

I miss him.

Jenelle and I are cool again. :D

The first wrestling match is Friday and I am going. :) Woot woot. To cheer on John, Patrick, and Josh-ua. ;)

So, yeah. blah.

I'm going to bed.

hello_hopeless @ 2005-11-25T19:19:00

2005-11-26T00:19:11Z

I am bored and figured I would update, for once.

I am finally over my 'heartbreak'. I am dating around now. If I find someone special that I want to get serious with then awesome, if not then you won't see me boo-wooin'.

My job is kick ass. :) I hope they decide to keep me after Christmas.

Yep.

My life is pretty dull.

I am going to go call B-Chelle and see if she is coming over.

Therefore, I'm done.

good night. ;)

<3

Let me so dead and so gone. <\3

2005-11-19T04:27:09Z

So, I got my license yesterday. I enjoy driving. It makes me feel free and that I am in control of something for once. But I always got a job today. I now work at Dollar Tree with my best friend, Brittany Michelle. :D woot woot.

Well, it seems that I have been lied to by my ex-significant other. I fucking hate guys nowadays. What is so hard about just being honest. I mean, if he was gonna get serious with this girl why couldn't he tell me? I shouldn't have to get my friend to call me and tell me he is dating some Megan girl since he decides to post it all of his goddam profile. ahhh. I don't think he even realizes how much I want to be with him. but you know what. If I am not worth his time, why should he be worth mine? I mean, he still calls me babe, baby, sweetie. Why must he call me those names when I know he is saying them to some other girl? It's funny how a month ago he said he loved me and now it's like I'm not worth anything to him. Just another notch in his bedpost, another memory, another broken heart he can frame in his mind. I hope he knows that he has hurt me more I ever been hurt before. All I want is a serious relationship with a guy who is going to take me seriously and not just some fucking ragdoll.

We got new computers. Dad got a new laptop, mom got a new desktop, and John fixed my computer. Mom bought me a new keyboard as well. :) So that is kick ass since my old one was kind of broken, like hardcore.

Well, starting tomorrow I am going to the YMCA. I have a goal, and that goal will be met. I am determined to lose weight by the New Year.

I got my report card today, I got all b's and C's and a D in Tucker's Music Theater class, mostly because I don't pay a damn bit of attention. Oh well, not as if I give a flying fuck about that class.

I need a beer.

I miss Katie.

I need to get away, just take a drive by myself and my CDs. Not like I have the time and money to do that.

Carolina put Rackie down Tuesday. It broke my heart. I love that dog. I miss her a lot. :'(

Why must life suck so bad? I am to the point that I just don't want to be here. If I had it my way, I would live in my bed for the rest of my pathetic life. No drama, no love, no heartache, and no one to bring me down !

I am done.

Good-night.

Must be nice having someone who loves you fo sho !

2005-11-13T00:31:25Z

Bre and I went to the cemetary today ...

It's amazing how every one of these statue's have a story to tell.

Bre and I camera whored !! :) I love you Bre ! BFF !! <3

shiit, we aren't goth, we be gangsta, right bre? haha.

Am I More Than You Bargained For Yet??

2005-11-08T17:13:29Z

- sigh - I left school early today because I have a headache from hell and I am so fucking tired. I don't think I've been 'awake' for a long time actually.

So, last night i went to the game with Jessica.. It was fun, as always. I ended up meeting up with Bre, haven't seen her in ages. I need to stop doing the things I do. I lie to myself to often. I promised him and I promised myself I wouldn't do that again. gah, i despise myself.

I get my license in 9 days. :)

I put my application in at Wendy's. She said I would get a phone call tomorrow and she can guarantee I get the job. I need the money, and it's not like him and I will hang out every weekend like we used to. So why shouldn't I get a job? It will give me something to occupy my time with and keep my mind off things, hopefully my grades will stay the same or even approve.

I really hate fall, I am so fucking not myself. I have an attitude from hell with everyone and I don't mean to, I just say what's on my mind.

I've been thinking a lot lately about my past relationships. And with some of them, I don't even know why they ended. :\ I think really, the only one I regret deeply is Glen and I's. That was my fault mostly. It wasn't mature of us to get other people in the middle, but I do regret that.

I miss Katie.

Jessy is going to mother my children. hahah

Well, I am going to go be a couch potatoe.

<3

When you got somebody good ya hold on to 'em

2005-11-04T02:42:52Z

What did I tell you. I knew something bad was going to happen.

I lost him. I'm a failure. Even though he told me he loved and cared for me and I was his best friend, I still feel like it's a lie. I guess I have learned over the years of heartbreak I know when these things are going to happen. ahh. It just hurts so bad.

I feel almost as if he stabbed me in the heart then twisted it and found it amusing. - shakes head - Oh how I long for a secure relationship.

Really, that's all I want in life.

Dear Santa,
Please put him under my tree wrapped in a bow. :'(
Although, I know you will fuck me over just like every other fucking idiot.

Thanks and all my love,
Beth anne

14 days until I get my license !!! woooo !!!

hello_hopeless @ 2005-11-01T19:34:00

2005-11-02T00:20:44Z

So, my computer crashed. I won't be online for awhile. :\

Well, I get my license in 16 days...

...I've been so unhappy these past few days. I feel like something bad is happening or going to happen. :\ All I've been doing is crying. Ahh

Well dad wants on here to see if he can get this damn thing to work.

All my love.

<3

hello_hopeless @ 2005-10-30T13:23:00

2005-10-30T18:39:20Z

"I've been here before a few times and I'm quite aware we're dying. And your hands they shake with good-byes, and I'll take you back if you'd have me. So here I am, I'm trying. So here I am, are you ready? Come on let me hold you, touch you feel you, always. kiss you, taste you, all night, always. And I'll miss you laugh, your smile. I'll admitt I'm wrong if you tell me. I'm so sick of fights, I hate them. Let's start this again for real." - Blink 182

I hate fall. It is so depressing. I'm always cold, sick, tired, and I always feel that I am lonely. Even though I know I have somone special, I am just waiting for something bad to happen. I guess I don't have to much confidence in myself, almost as if I can't keep someone in love with me. When I think about, no one has really ever said "I'll always love you" to me and meant it. Yeah, Glen said it, but he despises me now. I guess I deserve it, even though it was a mistake. I still hate myself for that, I know he don't believe me, but I think it hurt me more than it hurt him.

18 more days until I get my license, that is really the only thing I'm anxious about. I like driving, I love driving on country roads or roads with beautiful scenery, It is easy to take my mind off things.

Tomorrow I am going out with a few friends. That should be fun.

There is a stay cat running around my neighborhood. She is gorgeous. She's black and white. I walked outside this morning and sat down on my back porch. She automatically came down off the retaining wall and sat with me.

I have a date to winter formal, Josh. He's a sweetheart. Let's hope this year isn't as bad as last year's.

Well, I am going to cuddle up in a blanket, drink so hot tea, and watch a few movies.

Happy Halloween.

<3

hello_hopeless @ 2005-10-13T18:53:00

2005-10-13T23:18:21Z

You are the Goddess of darkness:You just want to
always be alone and you don't really have that
many fiends but when you get mad you want to
make sure everybody feels your wrath!

What type of goddess are you???????WITH BEAUTIFUL(AND I MEAN BEAUTIFUL) PICS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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The Smiley Condom!!
You enjoy being a tease. You like to be chased. You
are very flirtaous and the attention you get
feeds you self-esteem. You are not sure of
yourself in many areas and even in this one you
tend not to know exactly where you stand, so by
playing hard to get you assure you are wanted.
rejection is too hard for you and you are
typically scared of failure.
Best Position: The Spoon ( him behind her on thier
sides)

Condoms!! what is your kind of condom AND what does it mean?( with pics not dirty sheesh!)
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Braids

You're the intellectual happy-go-lucky type of
person! You like to express your opinion a lot,
and you always enjoy hanging out with your
friends. You're very intellectual, and you're
also very artistic. You have many talents that
you like to show off to your group of friends,
and you always love a good joke! Your friends
always look up to you and they love having you
around to brighten up their days! People just
can't resist to want to be around you!

What hairstyle suits your personality?
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your a flower faerie! your very cheery and bright,
and most of the time your laughing along with
your many friends. nothing ever gets you down
except every once in a while.

what would you be in a fantasy world? (amazing pics!)
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You want a Beautiful love, soft
but passionate. You are probably very old
fashioned and polite. You can't stand rude
people, wolf whistles are to you only
dis-respective and immature. You love nature
and everything beautiful in life. You will fall
for a guy that makes you forget about the rest
of the world.

Please rate aaaaand... eat chocolate bars?
*cough*rate*cough* ^^

What Love are you Fated for? ~AWESOME anime pics!~
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kiss on the lips - you're sweet and simple but
quite daring. you move for the kill confidently
knowing the other person wants the same thing.

What Sign of Affection Are You?
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You're a Punk.
louder, faster form of rock and roll, often
antiestablishment.

What High School Stereotype are you? (pictures!)
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hello_hopeless @ 2005-10-10T18:28:00

2005-10-10T22:20:18Z

This weekend was awesome. I got to hang out with Brittany, Kristen, Nate, Gene, and Carbohydrate. haha. It was fun. I don't feel like going into deep detail.

I am thinking about dying my hair again. Should I leave it the way it is or dye it black again?

Well, I am sure Patrick will be very happy. I got my pictures back today. haha

Christina, C-Jay, and me.

C-Jay and I.

Rachel and I. :)

Patrick and I.

us again !!

Tiffany, me, and Jess.

Patrick rocking out my hoodie, and Tiffany.

Jessy and I

Jessy and Tiffany

Jessy and James

C-Jay and I.

Daniel

James

Cody, my little brother, is blessed in the penis department. :x

REALLY bad pictures. haha. Tony and I goofin' off in Keyer's class.

Tony !! <333

Tony is the sex. <3

hello_hopeless @ 2005-10-02T00:54:00

2005-10-02T04:37:12Z

As you can see, Carolina, Mom, and I had fun with helium balloons tonight. :)

Baby peektures !! :)

2005-09-26T00:16:23Z

So after I got home today, I looked through some photo albums. I found some pictures I've been looking for. :) aww. I wish I was little again. I didn't have a care in the world.

Right after I was born.

4 months old.

sleeping.

I have no idea what I was doing. eating graham crackers then posin' ?

I ended up ripping that dolls hair out about 5 years later. haha

Pappy, Grandma, and me chillin' under the table !! :)

Stephie Ann, Steven, and me at the Lion Show at Station Mall. I'm guessing it was pretty scary considering I am grabbing my throat. lol

Me and my favorite cusion, Susan Marie at Pap Pap's house

Daddy and I sleeping.

I'm a grandma's girl. :) She had me walking before I was 8 months old.

My mom is so pretty. :) I <3 her.

Steve and I cruisin'. :)

Giving my great pap pap flowers. :) He was passed away in '94. :'( I miss him dearly.

Joshua and I. He was my mom's best friend's son.

Joshua and I kissing !! aww. We weren't even a year old !

Friends Only. <3

2005-08-21T04:24:14Z

Sorry to all my ex-boyfriends mothers !! I know how important it is for you to be nosey. Good luck with trying to find a new hobbie ! ;) -muah- <3